So today I learned about Sonship and living out of a whole heart at my ministry internship in Grove City. It was so good to realize the lies I believed about God the Father, and in turn replace those lies with truth about Him. For example, I thought God would never be satisfied with my performance because I can never possibly be perfect. My relationship with Him was basically me striving and trying to measure up to His standard, when in reality all He wants is for me to know that He loves me. I can never be perfect, but God doesn’t see my imperfections. He sees the finished product of a pure vessel He has made with Rachel Smith, and He is also walking with me on this journey of perfecting and molding my heart to be one with Him. Every day I wake up in the morning, and I find that even in my sleep God has started to burn away desires and sinful thoughts that don’t align with His heart. He has started a Holy Fire within my heart that lives on perfect oil, and anything that isn’t of His spirit is being burnt out or rooted out. It’s a redemptive and beautiful journey, but there is pain and a lot of emotional struggle that goes along with this process. It’s a good thing He is my protector, and in my weakness He is strong.
Proverbs 4:23 “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”