Everything that happened during the hike I took was amazing, but I came home and everything that had happened before sort of consumed me. I was brought back to reality. I feel like nobody cares and that I have no girlfriends to talk to. I cried out to the Lord about everything, and I asked Him to fill the empty places in my heart. I still feel empty.
As I walked up and down mountains it seemed as though I couldn't take another step with my blistering feet and aching muscles. But God showed me that His Spirit is more powerful than the flesh. The flesh doesn't want to do the hard work, and it wants to stop as soon as possible. The Holy Spirit, God's spirit, can push your body to do so much more though. After the first day of just 4 1/2 miles, I didn't think I could even stand the next day which included walking about 10 miles. I depended on the Lord's strength instead of my own from then on, and He amazingly gave it to me. I had never experienced His power in that way before. It made me realize that I'm so weak without Him whether it be physically or emotionally.
For a period of time I walked in front of Dan and Dustin during our hike, and Dan talked about how our hearts just want to get off the trail of life that God has for us. They flee and they make mistakes, but the Spirit brings us back and makes us holy which is so wonderful. I'm so glad that I have God's spirit inside of me to steer me in the right direction. When I hear what I could be without God I don't want to have anything to do with it because the Holy Spirit drives me that way. I'm so in awe of God's power and love for us. He really wants us to love Him.
Life was one of the most obvious things that I could observe during the whole hike. God is life. He creates so many things from tiny beautiful flowers to high majestic mountains. He knows each and every flower and each and every mountain. He also knows each and every plant that comes to life because He gives them life. The most wonderful thing is that He knows all of this, and He also knows each and every one of our hearts better than we know them. Every person in the world is known by Him. How amazing is that? To have a God so above everyone and everything. I love being a friend of an omniscient God.
Well.. I probably didn't explain it as well as I could have. I'm still a little lightheaded from the trip. Haha. Thank you for reading.
7 The earth trembled and quaked,
and the foundations of the mountains shook;
they trembled because he was angry.
8 Smoke rose from his nostrils;
consuming fire came from his mouth,
burning coals blazed out of it.
9 He parted the heavens and came down;
dark clouds were under his feet.
10 He mounted the cherubim and flew;
he soared on the wings of the wind.
11 He made darkness his covering, his canopy around him—
the dark rain clouds of the sky.
12 Out of the brightness of his presence clouds advanced,
with hailstones and bolts of lightning.
13 The LORD thundered from heaven;
the voice of the Most High resounded.
14 He shot his arrows and scattered the enemies ,
great bolts of lightning and routed them.
15 The valleys of the sea were exposed
and the foundations of the earth laid bare
at your rebuke, O LORD,
at the blast of breath from your nostrils.
I guess God has a lot of anger seeing as to what Daniel could imagine up of the Lord. Thankfully the God I serve is a God of grace.
I know I'm not perfect, and I can never be perfect. I can strive to be a servant of the Lord, but I can't think of some formula to deal with anger the right way. The only action I can think of is pray and be faithful to the Lord. I will mess up, but that doesn't stop me from pursuing Him and submitting each day to Him.